It has been a while since I have wrote anything really person on my blog. This was something I noticed the other day. It almost seems to me that I forgot one of the main reasons I started blogging which was to help me with expressing myself better. If you were to meet me in person, you would see how difficult it is for me to deal with feelings. I don’t show them very often. I have gotten better at it than I used too. For example, a friend stopped by today to get a CD of music for her aunt’s funeral. She noticed I had the bank (Captain America) she got me for Christmas sitting on my dresser. She said “My mom said she never seen you express that much emotions before, he must have really liked the bank”. It is true that I am a big fan of Captain America, it is also true that I really don’t show my emotions. It isn’t that I don’t feel them; it’s just that I don’t allow them to come out.
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