Posts Tagged ‘Heaven’

Happy 33rd Birthday Natalie

Wednesday, September 16th, 2009

Sometimes I wonder what is would be like when I get to Heaven. Will my sister, cousin and grandparents all be there to welcome me? Will they be proud of the life I have lived?

Today is my sister’s birthday. She would have been 33 today. She died in a drunk driving accident when she was 18. She was out partying with some friends on a Friday night. Sometime in the wee hours of the night, we left with a friend and some guy named Jeremy. My understand Jeremy told my sister and her friend that he hadn’t drunk much and was safe to drive her friend home and my sister back to where she left our car (Her and I shared a car). They were able to drop off my sister’s friend and on their way back to the car, Jeremy was driving like 70 mph in a 35 mph zone. There was a curve in the road that he didn’t make. Jeremy crashed the car into a tree. My sister was killed instantly on impact. He was thrown through the windshield window and survived the crash.

That morning that I found out had to be the worst day of my life. My dad came up to my brother and my room to tell us. He woke us up around 6 in the morning with the news. He said, “Boys get up, Natalie was in a wreck and is died”. Those words still haunt me to this day.  Just thinking about it almost brings me back to that day and the emotions I had.

Yesterday I went and got my haircut. I get my haircut by my sister’s old best friend. She sees Jeremy every now and then. She told me when I was getting my haircut that he is now married to a girl that my sister graduated with. I told her “I hope they are happy together”. She told me, “Not me, I hope they have a rotten life together”. Honestly, the way I look at it is if he isn’t sorry for what he had done and doesn’t change the way he lives his life, he has to answer to God for it all. Life on earth is short compared to the time we have when we die and go to Heaven, Hell, or Purgatory. I do believe strongly in my heart that God will make him answer for ALL his actions and God know if he is sorry for what he has done. If you are wondering, according to my sister’s old best friend, she still sees Jeremy out in the local bars drinking and getting into his car drunk and driving away. She has called the police on him several times for doing so. So honestly, I do not really feel that he is truly sorry for what he did to my sister and our family. All I know is God will make him answer for ALL he has done and with God, there is no lying, there is no telling Him you are sorry when you are not, there is acting like you want to be forgiving one day and the next going out and doing the same wrong thing over again.

I would like to take this time to remind everyone that drunk driving kills.
I have lost a sister, an uncle and a friend to it. All three were killed at separate times. So please, if you do go out and drink, make sure you have a DD and please make sure that DD is a responsible person.  Do not be afraid to call someone if you need a ride or take a cab home. It is much better to do that then have your family and friend go through an ordeal like the ones I have had to experience.

St. Joseph? Is he the saint that looks over me?

Sunday, September 6th, 2009

Novena to St. Joseph

O GLORIOUS St. Joseph, faithful follower
of Jesus Christ, to you do we raise our hearts
and hands, to implore your powerful intercession
in obtaining from the benign Heart of Jesus
all the helps and graces necessary for our spiritual
and temporal welfare, particularly the grace of
a happy death, and the special favor we now implore

(Mention your petition. Then say the following
seven times in honor of the seven sorrows and
joys of St. Joseph.)

O Glorious St. Joseph, through the love that
you bore to Jesus Christ, and for the glory of
His Holy Name, deign to hear our prayers and
obtain for us our petitions. O Jesus, Mary and
Joseph, come to our assistance. Amen.

This is a prayer that I have prayed twice now and each time St. Joseph has answered me. I want to share it with everyone in hopes that he intercedes on your behalf.

You may ask why I decided out of all the Saints that I could pick from, why I picked St. Joseph. The answer is like this. When I went through Confirmation, I chose St. Joseph as the saint to be named after. I don’t really know all the details to why we pick a Saint to take the name of, but I think it has something to do with attempting to live one’s life like they did seeing we know they have made it to Heaven. Honestly, the reason I picked St. Joseph was because my name is Joseph and I really was not all that into the religious thing. My mom said I had to do it, so I did. I am sure that wasn’t much different than many teenagers, they go to Church and do what is required of them because their parents tell them too.

Anyways, now I am glad that I picked St. Joseph as who I should model my life after. I know this may seem strange coming from a gay guy, that he feels he should model his life as the man chosen to watch over Jesus when He was young and Mary while she was pregnant and raising Jesus. What would I have in common with him? I think it is this. St. Joseph was a very important part of God’s plan, but he is over looked often. It seems that most people focus more on Mary, than they do Joseph. He is somewhat a forgotten individual, sort of like me. I do feel that St. Joseph understand what it’s like to be overlooked and feels for those people. Well, that is what I thought until recently.

I would also like to share with you something else that I have discovered about St. Joseph. This can be found on Saints’ Names for Boys. I found out there are two St. Josephs. One is the one I have talked about above, Jesus’ dad. The other is Saint Joseph of Cupertino. Here is what is written on that website about both of these Saints.

God chose Saint Joseph to care for Mary and Jesus because his holiness and love for Him was great, his compassion for others was outstanding, and his desire to protect and provide for his family was honorable.

Saint Joseph of Cupertino endured much rejection—his mother disapproved of him and the religious orders he tried to join refused him—but rather than succumbing to self-pity, he turned to God for acceptance. He became a priest who worked miracles and conversed intimately with Christ in ecstasies.

Check out Saint Joseph of Cupertino. This gives me something new to think about! Maybe this is the St. Joseph I should model my life after. I will have to do some more research on him, but by this short descriptions, he may be more of the guy that I could relate too.

Don’t get me wrong, I still believe that it was St. Joseph (Jesus’ dad) that interceded for me in the past. He is the one I still turn to when I really need someone to speak to God on my behalf, well, besides my sister, cousin and grandparents. I do believe they are all in Heaven and have spoken to God on my behalf before. But out of everyone that I have asked help from, St. Joseph seems to have a little more grace with God to intercede in ways that make it know that he was the one that interceded on my behalf.

I would just like to ask these questions of you. Have you ever asked a Saint to intercede for you? If so, would you care to share whom that Saint was? I do not think it is important to share (unless you wish too) how the Saint interceded for you. I think it is more important to let others know that Saints will intercede on our behalves if they feel they should do so.

P.S. If you don’t know what Novena means, it’s a recitation of prayers and devotions for a special purpose during nine consecutive days.